I am constantly seeking to better manage my time to do all of the things I want to do and, of course, all of the things I need to do. I have never quite reached a place where I am completely satisfied with how I manage my time. I try to tell myself that the important thing is to continue on the journey and that life requires a constant questioning and self-reflection in order to be better tomorrow than we are today.
I want to be able to laser focus on the tasks I set out to do, but the truth is that I daydream quite a bit and, honestly, I love that about myself. I enjoy wondering about things and constantly looking for more “useless knowledge” to fill my mind with.
I sometimes look through my social media where I rarely ever post anymore. I am grateful that I am no longer constantly posting and scrolling. It’s an activity that can be harmful if you’re not careful, but I don’t want to completely delete my accounts because of the memories on there and the old friendships that I see on there like ghosts of from a past life.
I was watching a video today about gardens in Kyoto and I daydreamed about going to live in Kyoto in solitude and spend the rest of my days as a gardener and groundskeeper. I felt a desire to dedicate myself to an activity that would allow me to be in nature most of the day and live a humble life without luxury and only saving to the occasional trip to explore around the country. It’s not something I could bring myself to do in real life, but it is certainly nice to think about it.