To sit in front of a screen and type up something was among the last things I wanted to do tonight. Wednesdays are my busiest days and I am mentally drained by the time late evening arrives. I was tempted to write self-pitying myself, but I erased those words because I don’t want something negative on this public journal of mine. Let’s focus on the positive.
While nothing can immediately cure my exhaustion, this writing exercise has given me an opportunity to reflect on another feeling: pride. Not pride in the negative sense, but the kind of pride that comes with a sense of accomplishment. My exhaustion is a product of my commitment to my work and my determination to deliver an excellent product. Right now I am tired because I am trusted with many responsibilities and I delivered on the trust placed in me by focusing my concentration on performing well. Don’t worry, I’m not deluding myself into believing I’m creating the next iPhone or launching a SpaceX rocket. I am simply reaffirming to myself that I have a role to play in this life and that this life has a purpose; and I must honor this with my work and take pride in it.
So I’m glad I wrote a little something today. It has realigned my perspective! On that note, I read somewhere that when you’re in a bad situation you should write all the bad things down so that when you leave that situation and look back on it, you don’t fool yourself into thinking that everything was all rosy. On some level I understand that article’s point, but fore the most part I disagree. If you’re not careful and only focus on the negative you’re going to always find a reason to leave and never give yourself the opportunity to triumph over difficult situation: you’ll merely be quitting every time.
I have been very blessed in my life, but like everyone else I may face challenges from time to time. I want to be the type of person that looks at those challenges as opportunities to rise to the occasion.